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Word(s) of the Day

Posted on 2018.04.26 at 15:13
Listening to: Here We Go magic - Over the Sea

Yesterday's Word of the day is Pinetum.
My first guess was it referred to that slight belly extension that you get when you quaff a litre of Spruce Beer but no, its actually a:
noun: An arboretum of coniferous trees such as pines.

I have to admit that it's a better guess than my guess for today's WOD which is Arctophile. I thought for sure that this might have something to do with Loving the Arctic (because clearly I can't differentiate between Arcti and Arcto) but I was proven wrong once again. Would you believe that it's a:
noun: Someone who is very fond of teddy bears or collects them. Nope, I would never have guessed.

Why am I telling you all this? Because I thought that an entry is better than no entry.

So my wife is leaving for Italy in a week. She's taking a University level drawing course that will last a month. We're both a bit apprehensive about the whole thing. She's got her own set of worries that she won't enjoy being stuck with a bunch of undergrads for that length of time. She's worried about performance too, of course, but given that she was an architect in a previous career I think she'll be fine with a pencil. She also keeps mentioning that she hopes that I'll be happy to see her when she gets back.  She thinks that we spent far too much time in close quarters last year because of the cancer treatments I went through and that it would be good for us to spend some time apart and that I'll stop being angry.
I'm not though; angry, that is. What I am feeling is a gradual disinterest in and dissolution of the relationship because of the complete lack of intimacy that was brought to us by menopause. No cuddles, no hugs, and certainly no love-making for the past two years kind of brings a guy down - health issues notwithstanding.

Anyway, I am kind of looking forward to the break. I keep thinking back to when I was single and young and lonely and I wonder if next month will be like that again.  Wait and see. Wait, and see.


Comments:


mexpatriot
mexpatriot at 2018-04-27 02:09 (UTC) (Permanent link)
Probably the time apart will be a good thing. It will, at least, let you know a lot of things. I am a shrink by trade. I practice this myself. I go away for two weeks every six months. Typically I do some sort of meditation retreat (nothing organized or group-involved). I think about all the women I could have while my wife isn't there, but I never do anything about that. The fantasy is far better than actually doing it. Anyway, I end up missing her a great deal and am really happy to return home to her and the cats (moreso the cats). :)
Simply Stan
paperpath at 2018-04-27 19:37 (UTC) (Permanent link)

Thank you for your insight and experience. I look forward to what next month will teach me.

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